But your so thin!

Today I had to go to the doctor for a  sinus infection. I know hot, right? Well, my normal routine when going to the doctor and having to be weighed is asking the nurse to please weigh me backwards and not tell me the number. One would not believe the responses I get asking this little favor. I have gotten eye rolls, huffs, comments ("Your so thin though!") and other little snarky responses. Today that same thing happened, it wasn't from the nurse (he was male) but from a pharmaceutical rep standing across from me. She looked like her eyes were going to pop out of her head when she heard me say this! I wanted to look at her straight in the eye and explain to her that hearing my weight has often and could make me go into both an instant bad mood and a starvation/diet mode (which ends up backfiring!). I would also tell her that little number on the scale has the ability, with me, to control everything, my thoughts, my moods, everything. That obsession with the scale is the reason I can't and won't weigh right now. I hope that one day I can be strong enough to go to the doctor and get on that scale, clothes and all, hear the number and not give two hoots! I know that one day it will happen, but in time. I knot it is on this path I am travelling down, I just have to get there. For now, I will just have to deal with the snarky comments and eye rolls!