The first winter storm of the season has hit the area, and I am NOT a fan at all. This kind of weather makes me want to fly south like the birds real bad!! But despite the less than stellar weather, today was a pretty good day. I did a 5 mile run this morning without any knee pain (which thrills me!), had another yummy green smoothie, and then this afternoon had another great workout with Susie my trainer. We talked about some goals I want to meet (one being to increase my muscle tone!) and she makes my goals seem so doable while still being realistic with food and life! This approach is exactly what I need right now. Also, after meeting with my nutritionist last night I also feel I am back on a positive path with the intuitive eating process, I just have to be patient which she reinforced quite a few times. So, it's been an up and down kind of week but ending on an up note and I have a fun weekend ahead to look forward to!
This weekend my husband, my dog Lucy and I are heading up to see my in-laws for the weekend. (Our other pup,Emilio, will be having a staycation with my folks!) I love going up to visit them. We always have so much fun and it's just nice to get away once in awhile, even if it is only 2 hours. But, as fun as these weekends are , they have often been a source of stress for me with my disordered eating. Anyone who knows my father in law KNOWS that man loves to eat and loves to make sure all those he entertains have MORE than enough to eat. Well, I am all for this believe me because he makes and buys some of the best goodies around (Avanti's ranch dressing and bread..OMG!). But, because of my (disordered) relationship with food, in the past I would pretty much eat little to NOTHING all day because I knew we would be having lots of yummy food and I wanted to have room for it all and knew I would probably eat a little more than usual. Well, as one can imagine this would backfire, I would be STARVING when I got there and snack, snack, snack all evening making myself feel miserable. Then the next day the thoughts would start, that I was disgusting, out of control, I wasn't going to do that again...and the cycle continued. If I could I would run around the neighborhood for a bit to destress but if I couldn't do that I fussed. Not always out loud but to myself, a lot. Now, looking back on the experiences I have had with this (and through reading my book) I realize that I need to eat more balanced throughout the day to AVOID being ravenous when I arrive. I also know (and have been told) I need to take a deep breath and relax around the food, and eat what I really want and pay attention to how my body feels, my satisfaction level and my fullness. I need to remember on of the intuitive eating motto's of "If you don't love it don't eat it and if you love it, savor it."
So because I am all into branching out and changing I have a few goals for the weekend. To listen to my body and eat what I want (and love!) and enjoy it. To have cocktails (Mama Dunham margaritas are absolutely AMAZING!) and enjoy the company and conversation. To not wig out because I can't run in the morning after a night of a (little) overindulgence, and do yoga instead, or nothing at all and know I will be fine! This weekend I will eat, drink and be merry (for real!) with my fun, fabulous family!
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