I am lucky enough to have a husband that likes to cook and is FABULOUS at it! This is the meal he cooked me last night, a portabella mushroom grilled on a white bun with provolone cheese, tomato, spinach lettuce, and red peppers along with a spinach salad with raspberry vinegarette, walnuts and feta. It was DELICIOUS! It was also a big step for me, having him cook it all and me not have my hand in it (just ask him). But I let go of my rather anal tendencies for the evening and you know what, it was nice, it was delicious and I enjoyed!! So, that is definitely a step in the right direction and something that makes me happy!
Another thing that is making me happy, almost ecstatic actually, is that I am running about 4 miles a day most days of the week again, with NO knee pain! I love running, it is my prozac! I injured my knee over the summer and wasn't able to run like I wanted, or could. This put me in all sorts of funks, but also made me realize that I had overtrained (again, not treating myself right) and that I had to take it slow, go to physical therapy and be patient (not a big virtue for me) to get back on the right track with running. So, I did just that, I went to the right doctor, had physical therapy, had a cortisone shot in my knee, took it SLOW and steady and (AHA!) here I am almost back to where I used to be. I guess my body was telling me to take a break and I proved to myself that taking it slow would lead to a good, healthy, total recovery. Now I am planning my next half-marathon.......
One more thing to note that makes me go AHA involves me meeting with my therapist yesterday. I enjoy going to see her, it is a total release and I feel like I get everything off my chest. From issues with my disordered eating to issues with my husband (not that there are many!). But the session yesterday was about my disordered eating. I told her about this blog and my new path and she thought I was doing very well on the road to recovery. That I had finally reached that point where I was going to really commit to it (AHA!). She also has a way of making me talk out loud and make some of my thoughts aboout my body, dieting, exercise, sound as distorted as they truly are. Like the fact that not eating and overexercising doesn't necessarily make you lose weight or get healthy. Case in point, my wonderful mother has lost 50 pounds over the past year. She accomplished this by exercising and sticking to the Weight Watchers Points Plus Plan. She looks amazing and healthy. And you know what, she ATE (AHA) and exercised (not obsessively) and she looks and is so healthy and fabulous. She once told me that I was her inspiration to get on the healthy road in life. But oh how the tables have turned. She now is my inspiration on MY healthy path in life! I look to her and think Mom did it, I can surely do it, and I will be better for it (like she is). We both have had our AHA moments in the past year or so and now we are both on the path to health, she may be a little farther down the road than I am, but I hope to catch up. Soon.
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